| Bad day, hey hey. |
[Feb. 3rd, 2010|02:14 am] |
I must have a thing for guard rails. I drove back from queens while it was snowing and tried driving extra careful..instead I skidded out, did a 360 and hit the guard rail. Then right when I think it's over I do a 360 again and hit another guard rail. lol.
I was so angry with myself. The first time this happened was when I was 18 and it was raining cats and dogs. Now I'm almost 22 and I can't stop crashing into guard rails! I got home and my dad went bat-shit. It's always my dad who I fear the most. ALTHOUGH, I usually respect and empathize when he gets like this, this time he was just being over dramatic telling me "I'm such a nice guy for letting you use my car! and you treat it like shit! IT'S NOT FAIR TO ME" I apologized but I certainly do not treat his car like shit. His car is equally my car too and I genuinely care about it PERIOD.
Naturally I'm going to pay for it. I'm looking up price estimates right now. Fuck February 2nd! Live and learn though, right? I'll never drive in snow or rain again.
Update: Car is at the shop. It 400 which isn't so bad, just my whole damn pay check. ^_^ |
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| This is my girly side. |
[Jan. 31st, 2010|12:01 am] |
-'I feel ugly today'
---'Why?'
-'I guess I'm just used to him tellin me I look pretty every day. I have no one to boost my self esteem.. as lame as all that sounds'
---'You look the same as you always have and you've always looked beautiful.. you don't need someone to tell you the truth everyday but then again it's nice but then again you don't need it.'
AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! |
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| Status Quo |
[Jan. 22nd, 2010|03:25 am] |
I've been a very busy gal.
Monday's and Wednesday's I have school allllll day. [2-9:30 with an hour break in between]
Tuesday's and Thursday's I plan to go the gym. I know I haven't mentioned it but yeah
I joined a mo'fuckin gym! That was one of the goals I incessantly spoke about getting around to but never did until now so I feel extremely pleased with myself.
Friday's and Saturday's I work all day. Opening til close.
And there you have it.
The only thing that would top off all of this is if I were taking drum lessons. That's something I've been jonesing to do however I don't have money for a drumset. Perhaps in the future.
I feel like my life is in apple-pie order.
I even went to the gyno today too. I had a yeast infection for the longest time and finally got medication for it. THANK GOD! I'm not even an unclean individual but before my parents were struggling with bills and I didn't want to burden them with a doctor bill especially since we don't have health insurance. I'm good though, my doc said my vadge is healthy and I went on my merry little way with my healthy little vadge.
The only venue in my life that hasn't been growing as plentiful or satisfactory as I'd hoped is the companionship branch. Only two individuals spring to mind when I think 'Authentic Friendship': people who will go above and beyond what it means to be an excellent companion. Every one else in comparison seems like doo-doo: periphery, fair weather friends and otherwise. Tis a shame but I guess that's just how people are. It can be lonely at times but I just remind myself that it's only because I got out of a relationship. Love and friendship will greet me again in due time.
Anyone else going through a similar experience?
In my next entry I'll be posting pictures of some pretty animal origami I made.. I've been dying to show them. CHAO. |
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| Pair Crepe |
[Jan. 9th, 2010|10:54 pm] |
drinkthek00laid (9:26:42 PM): you guys are really good friends
drinkthek00laid (9:26:46 PM): i love u guys
drinkthek00laid (9:26:52 PM): can we be like two guys and a pizza place and a girl drinkthek00laid (9:27:46 PM): http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0137330/
newage512040 (9:27:03 PM): maybe to the pizza idk about that other part
omartheoaktree (9:27:42 PM): never
LAWL.
I had a awful day at work and then I came home and thought about how much I feel cared about by my two of my fwends.
They're honestly good friends and it makes me happy.
I had the best crepe today at work that I long neglected and wish I hadn't. It's called the Paris and it has turkey, brie, apple and honey mustard. It seems like a disgusting combo but actually it's a stroke of genius --it's AMAZING!!!
It feels good to make money but I'm honestly exhausted. I also never know what to spend my damn money on.. I just save and save and save.
I think I might leave this job soon. The owner is trying to fire my manager and if they do then I'm out.. my manager is cool and I would spite the owner just for him. ^__^
Ugh I never feel like updating. Christmas was good. I also did really good this semester.. A's and B's. I'm still planning my trip to Costa Rica.. just waiting for my sister to tell me when.
My birthday is in a month or so. 22 years old.. WEIRD!!!!!!!!!
I don't know when I'll update again. I want to write something good next time but I've been busy.
See you in hell. |
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| Douche bag Customers and Douche bag co-workers |
[Dec. 13th, 2009|08:22 am] |
I had a funny dream. Basically, I was at this nice restaurant with some friends and one of my friends [I forget which] wanted to order milk which wasn't on the menu. Me and my other friend Janiz look at each other and are like... "don't order milk, you're one of those customers we'd hate. "
And then we were convincing our friend not to.
Haha. So true to life.
If you order food and change your side dish or try to order something that isn't there or try to create your own kind of dish. You're a Douche bag Customer.
Some customers are so high maintenance!
Me and my co-worker Jason vowed that for one full day we'd be extremely rude to ALL the customers. We'd have a field day. Haha.
Unfortunately Jason found a better job now so he'll be leaving soon. It sucks cause now I'm stuck with this other new guy at work who's a Douche bag Worker.
Oh well..! at least I'm making some money for x-mas. |
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| Founding Brothers by Joseph Ellis |
[Dec. 6th, 2009|09:04 pm] |
I just finished 'Founding Brothers' by Joseph Ellis. What a wonderful book. This author truly facilitated my understanding of history or at least the revolutionary era. History is not my forte... and I'm trying to compensate for that now. I'm also taking a history course this semester and I'm ashamed I haven't done it earlier.. I love it. To me, history is like.. celebrity gossip but with politicians and war instead, which makes it that much more fascinating. Plus you feel engaged because it's fucking real. It happened! And you're in the very same whereabouts that it happened. It's insane to think about.
I love the way this author writes too. I really felt like I exercised my brain while I read. Every book should be like that. Every single one. |
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| Seduction. |
[Nov. 30th, 2009|08:52 pm] |
In my experience, most men succumb easier to any kind of seduction a female offers him. This alone gives me a firmer stand to not even blink an eye at those types. Exclusivity is key.
That is all. :D |
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| All I do is study. |
[Nov. 30th, 2009|04:39 pm] |
I definitely have no time for anything anymore which is fantastic and MEH. Mark's birthday was Saturday. Every time I'm with him he always drives to 7-11 and buys two mentos.. don't ask me why so I thought it appropriate if I bought him a whole bag of them as his birthday present. He loved it lol and everyone giggled.
Omar's birthday is very soon. I know what I'm getting him. I don't think he reads this so I'll say it here. 'Behold a pale horse' by William Cooper. It's the best selling conspiracy book of all-time.. he'll obviously enjoy it because he's that kind of conspiracy geek. I hope he doesn't know about it.
I'm happy I have an income coming from two places so now I can be extremely spendthrift for X-mas. I truly love buying thoughtful gifts.
I'm also traveling again thanks to my sister! Costa Rica in January! I couldn't be more thrilled.
Now I must study.. like always. Thank God that school ends in a fortnight. Yes I just used the word fortnight. |
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| Financial Autonomy pt 2. |
[Nov. 29th, 2009|06:44 pm] |
I can finally say I work two jobs and go to school full time. I HAVE GAINED AUTONOMY.. mostly financial autonomy but that's still pretty sick.
I've been wanting this for a while so.. here we go. |
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| Crepe Maker |
[Nov. 20th, 2009|08:00 pm] |
I LOVE my to be job. In case I haven't mentioned it, I got hired at the crepe restaurant!! I only trained for two days so far and it's so much fun. I'm still being shown the ropes but I'm really loving the preparation and cooking of different crepes. I feel like I can cook. lol. This is how we make them(only watch the first 20 seconds): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RsZL3XA5NAU
My manager is so so so so lax. He's truly the opposite of all the past managers I've ever dealt with. We talk and share our lives. He talks to me purely on a human level instead of as a worker.
This is so much better than when I used to Bartend. I hated that shit so much. Drunk customers are so obnoxious and crazy.. and the hours are too long.
This job makes me feel like I'm reviving the artsy side of me. Infact, almost all of the workers there are lefty's including myself. Odd, huh?
The two guys I work with are culinary chefs so I pick up a lot from them. I feel like I'm in culinary school. I love it.
Ok, enough about that.
I gotta study.
I gotta do laundry and pack. I'll be in North Carolina Tuesday!
But I must study first. study, study, study. |
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| Lindemans and Crepes |
[Nov. 16th, 2009|12:25 am] |
Life has been good.
I'm so glad the semester is nearly over.
It's so insane how fast it went.
I'm so proud of myself in terms of time management skills. I get all my shit done a week prior and then have the rest of the week to study or hang out. If this were a few years back I probably would've got too overwhelmed with the amount of assignments and procrastinated everything til the 11th hour. I also find that when I get lonely or bored I'll immediately do something productive instead of just lazing around wallowing in it. Improvement FTW
Tracey's ( birthday )was over the week. I had a good time speaking to people I hadn't seen in a while. I love parties.
Me and Omar both applied to this crepe place. We're both hoping to get the job /Crosses fingers.
I also applied to yet again another supermarket. I think I've applied to at least 6 different supermarkets and most of them never got back to me.. I don't understand why.
I've been drinking the best beer lately. I found a beer distributor near my house and now enjoy skipping on over to try different burrs. Lindeman's Framboise is the fuckin best. Me, Omar, and Tony bought two bottles, one raspberry, another blueberry and a 6 pack of UFO's raspberry beer. Then we made ( crepes ) for practice.. and also because they are the best dessert on earth!!!
We all took turns making our own crepes and I ended up eating four. I'm so fat. One with apples and cinnamon, another with banana and chocolate syrup, and two cheddar cheese crepes.
Yep, hence why I rode my bike for a couple miles today. |
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| Mexico |
[Nov. 9th, 2009|09:13 pm] |
Mexico was one of the best trips I ever went on. I really had the best time ever.
( I swam with dolphins )
( I swam,drove,rafted through a cave and lurked lurked lurked. )
( I vegged out on a beach )
( I zip-lined. )
It was a really physically active trip which really made it.
I'm so desperate to travel again. There's good news too.. my sister became permanent at Jet Blue so now I can travel for free. What! what! Now I get to see the world like I want to... this gives me more incentive to get a job. Things are looking up. lol.
Coming back to the U.S. was like waking up after a really long, wonderful slumber... reality just slowly materializes again and you're like 'Ah fuck I have school tomorrow.. this sucks.' lol. I was just telling my friend how I wish I could travel every month so I can feel more refreshed, especially in the winter and what do ya know.
All I can say is I'm really lucky thanks to my sister.
Back to reality:
Yesterday I played Risk. Best game of risk ever. It was like playing a game of chess with 6 other people.. we all formed alliances and back-stabbed and rigorously strategized. We took it so seriously that we were all seriously rolling on the floor laughing because of how intense it'd get.
The following day was even worse...we played Risk from midnight to 8 in the the morning. Eventually my friend's mom woke up to go off to work lol. Another funny thing is we all saw The Fourth Kind and were scared afterward. I think I was the most scared and no one wanted to go home for fear of sleeping alone and getting abducted lol.
Now I'm sitting here drinking Purple Haze. A "raspberry wheat brew." I tried pumpkin ale for the first time today too but it was too spicy for me. School tomorrow. Goodnight. |
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| October |
[Oct. 23rd, 2009|08:40 pm] |
I feel really happy right now. I've finally acclimated to the school semester and I'm a lot more motivated and happier to do my homework and study for tests. I want to succeed, I want to succeed. I want to succeed!
I've been playing a lot of sports when the weather's right and when I'm not extremely sore from the last game. I learned a different way of playing handball, the chinese style, it's mellower but it's easier for me because it doesn't require much strength. lol. I've been playing horse [basketball] and occasionally tennis but I've gotten so rusty at it!!
October has been nice. Every weekend I've been going to this amusement park to try each individual Haunted house attraction. I've been trying to do halloweeny things here in NY since I'll be in MEXICO on Halloween!!!! I'll be visiting Mayan ruins and swimming with dolphins and of course soaking up the sun. I'm so excited. I haven't been out of the country in a while. Also, this weekend I'll be going to New Jersey for fright fest at six flags. AH AH AH!
A change of subject. Ever since I've been single, everyone's been coupling up! lol. I'm actually really happy for everyone. It's just tickles how the tables have turn. But that's just how life is. When I was in a relationship, everyone I knew was single. Now I've been single for almost a year. Can you believe it? I feel I'm ready for a relationship now and I'm honestly excited to meet that next new person. I keep thinking 'I'm young, I'm young, I'm young- -I can't wait' Sometimes I think it's too late... which is absolutely bizarre considering I'm only 21. I guess I'm just anxious because I truly love the strong bond that exists in a relationship. I really do cherish that. But I'm also anxious to see what the future has in store for me.
I apologize for jumping from topic to topic.
Today in the car coming back from dinner, my mom brought up how if her and my dad went to the restaurant alone they probably would've been seated near the bar in one of the two-seater booths. I said 'MOM, DON'T FORGET ABOUT ME! WHAT ABOUT ME?' and my dad responded 'Soon you'll forget about US, Lynn'
That made me really sad. I don't want to be one of those selfish people who moves on with their life and forgets about the people who truly matter. It reminded me of a quote I once read about people choosing what's convenient over what's moral. I don't want to be in a situation where I'm in the car with my husband and kids and we decide to pass on visiting my parents to go home instead of going the extra mile to see them.
I made a vow to never fore sake my parents. I just don't have the heart for it anyway.. I'm truly a loyal friend, lover and family member. I pride myself in that because I know some people ..just..aren't. |
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| Anime, School, Start life. |
[Sep. 27th, 2009|09:04 pm] |
I went to an anime convention!! I never been before. It was pretty nerdy as to be expected lol. A lot of youngsters were there but the costumes were sick. I wish I dressed up as pikachu but I went on whim so I didn't have time to plan anything.
I have no motivation for school. I still study and do the work but I'm so jaded and truly have to force myself. I just want to play poker or read my favorite books all day. The education system is so disappointing...I don't feel engaged at all and rather just sit home and read the textbook than go to class and feel bored. Some classes definitely require human interaction, otherwise it's just memorization..and that shouldn't require attendance. UGH!
I feel pretty happy in other aspects of my life.. I just want to get my degree and start my life already as an INDEPENDENT WOMAN. START. LIFE. /CLICK. |
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| First the bad news, then the really really good news. |
[Sep. 14th, 2009|09:28 pm] |
I periodically get dispirited about Santino. I often feel livid then depressed then I go back to acceptance. I feel like I lost a friend.. because things just wont be the same anymore and that's just an impossible likelihood in my head right now. How do I get over this?
Crying helps. The withdrawal can be really overwhelming sometimes and crying stablizes my mood. Then I actually feel better than ever. Thank you biology.
I'm still more hopeful than ever that I'll survive this, afterall.. this is just a phase I'm going through. It just hurts right now but it wont last forever..
On the bright side, this give me a chance to learn independence.. and speaking of which, I think I'll be working part-time at an organic supermarket soon. I've been dying to work at an organic establishment so Horrah!!!
and hey MORE great news.. I'm going to Mexico in October for Los Dias de Los Muertos! Aka Mexico's version of Halloween. I'm so so excited. I absolutely need a vacation to shake off these poo-poo feelings. I also need incentive to use my Spanish. I'm taking level two Spanish this semester and will keep continue taking Spanish classes until I learn dammit!
This semester isn't so bad. I like all of my teachers and my classes. I just don't like my religion class. It's hard to talk and hear about Christianity when you don't really care for or believe in it. Oh well. It's a requirement. lol. |
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| Texas Hold'em |
[Sep. 10th, 2009|01:04 am] |
Argh. I've become obsessed with on-line Poker, it's all I've been doing lately. I had 600k and then got really angry when I lost 200k so I just kept going ALL IN until I had nothing. Even when I knew I didn't have a good hand. FUCK POKER!!!
In other news.. I might be going to Mexico soon. It really depends.
FUCK POKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I refuse to play ever again. |
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| Philly |
[Sep. 8th, 2009|01:08 pm] |
I had a lot of fun yesterday. I went to Philly, Penn with a buncha friends and while our main focus was Philly Cheese Steaks, we ended up at this really nice art museum instead and even ran up the same steps that Sylvester Stallone ran up in Rocky. lol. There's a cute video of it too which I may post if I can get my hands on it.
( Scissors CUT )
I start school tomorrow! I'm sorta excited.. sorta sad about it. I feel like it's going to take me forever to get a degree. I'm also not looking forward to all the studying and paper-writing. Wah. At least I'll be busy. |
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| I'll let it be known to the world that I love: |
[Aug. 26th, 2009|04:32 pm] |
Filet mignon<3
and Pina coladas<3
My two favorites this month.
Also, check out my dessert. It was chocolate moose with two cookies and some yummy fruit. I love Portuguese food.
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